Saturday, September 24, 2016

Baby's First Podcast

Here 'tis. This is the lo-fi booger queen mashup of all the audio files from last night's radio broadcast. I call it a podcast. I will start posting these every Saturday (or Sunday, depending on work schedule). Once I have a few episodes uploaded I will submit my podcast to iTunes and maybe it'll become a real thing.

I'm thinking the name of the podcast will be "What's This Bitch Talking About?" instead of Mixtress Radio, but I don't know. What do you think?

Wednesday, August 24, 2016

Buffy: The Music

Buffy the Vampire Slayer showcased a lot of indie bands from the '90s in its 7-year run. It's been a goal of mine as a mixtress to make the COMPLETE Buffy playlist including all songs from the show in order of appearance and I have finally DONE IT!!! The mix is missing a good 20% of the songs because Spotify doesn't have everything, but I got pretty close.

I hope you will enjoy this playlist. I also have another one that includes the songs from Buffy in order of appearance that I love. This is the playlist I can play from beginning to end without skipping anything.


* (incredible online episode guide, but missing guide for seasons 6 and 7)
*Bite Me! by Nikki Stafford (very good book resource)
*The Complete Slayer by Keith Topping (this book is problematic [sexist, fat-phobic, riddled with inaccuracies], but it does list most of the songs)

Friday, August 19, 2016


32 of my library-type coworkers and I created a mix of our favorite songs of all time. Here are our entries from our youngest participant to most mature...but first, the links to the mixes themselves should you like to give a listen:

YouTube version: 

Spotify version (BETTER sound quality, but missing some songs): 

Forever // Drake ft. Kanye West and Lil Wayne
Numb/Encore // Jay Z and Linkin Park
Shoot Me Down // Lil Wayne
Nightmares of the Bottom // Lil Wayne
Stan // Eminem
Boom! // System of a Down
Dance with the Devil // Immortal Technique
When I'm Gone // Eminem
Mockingbird // Eminem
Ill Mind of Hopsin 4 // Hopsin

Radio // He is We
Sing Along // Billy Crudup
Jesus Christ // Brand New
Full Moon Rising // Neil Halstead
Beach Baby // Bon Iver
Tiderays // Volcano Choir
Sea, Swallow Me // Cocteau Twins & Harold Budd
Limousine //  Brand New
Where Do The Children Play // Cat Stevens
Hurt // Johnny Cash

Dancin' // Xanadu soundtrack
Let Yourself Go // Kristin Chenoweth
Tell Me Ma // Sham Rock
My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark // Fall Out Boy
Booty Swing // Parov Stelar
My Girl // Chilliwack
Innocent // Stellar Kart
Evacuate the Dancefloor // Cascada
That's How You Know // Enchanted soundtrack
Shut Up and Dance With Me // Walk the Moon

Hold on til May // Pierce the Veil
Stone Cold // Demi Lovato
Twinkle Song // Miley Cyrus
Mrs. Potato Head // Melanie Martinez
Thinking of You // Katy Perry
Glitter in the Air // P!NK
Love Drunk // Boys Like Girls
Wake Me Up When September Ends // Green Day
Satellites // Sleeping with Sirens
Wait // M83

Half Mast // Empire of the Sun
If Not For My Glasses // Dear and the Headlights
Hold Me Now // Thompson Twins
Shades of Cool // Lana Del Rey
La Vie En Rose // Louis Armstrong
I Like Giants // Kimya Dawson
December, 1963 // The Four Seasons
Sweater Weather // Scott Bradlee's Postmodern Jukebox
Ribs // Lorde
That Green Gentleman // Panic! at the Disco

I'm Alive // Xanadu soundtrack
A Girl Like You // Shaun Cassidy
Digital Love // Daft Punk
The Launch/Cool the Engines // Boston
Jade // X Japan
You Don't Want Me Anymore // Steel Breeze
Play the Game // Queen
Rockin' the Paradise // Styx
Big Fun // Barry Manilow
Birdland // Manhattan Transfer

Here Comes Your Man // Pixies
Once in a Lifetime // Talking Heads
Modern Girl // Sleater Kinney
True Love Will Find You in the End // Daniel Johnston
Road to Joy // Bright Eyes
If You Want to Sing Out, Sing Out // Cat Stevens

The Fool on the Hill // The Beatles
Girl // Beck
Seasons (Waiting on You) // Future Islands
There There // Radiohead
No One Knows // Queens of the Stone Age
Oblivion // Mastodon
Aerials // System of a Down
The Day I Tried to Live // Soundgarden
The Greys // Devin Townsend
Lost Keys (Blame Hoffman) + Rosetta Stoned // Tool

Serial Sleepers // House of Heroes
Our Love Saves Us // Blindside
Cuzco // E.S. Posthumus
Sooner or Later (Soren's Song) // Switchfoot
Melody of You // Sixpence None the Richer
Eileen's Song // Burlap to Cashmere
Rain // Blackmill
Summer Again // The Afters
Of Angels and Angles // The Decemberists
Let Your Love Be Strong // Switchfoot

I'm Not Okay (I Promise) // My Chemical Romance
Electric Twist // A Fine Frenzy
Here (In Your Arms) // Hellogoodbye
Astonishing // Little Women Broadway Cast
Never Again // Kelly Clarkson
Blank Space // Taylor Swift
Hell No // Ingrid Michaelson
Defying Gravity // Wicked soundtrack, Idina Menzel
There's a Good Reason These Tables are Numbered... // Panic! at the Disco
Catching My Breath // Kelly Clarkson

At Your Funeral // Saves the Day
Understanding in a Car Crash // Thursday
Oh My Sweet Carolina // Ryan Adams
Bixby Canyon Bridge // Death Cab for Cutie
All We Got // Chance the Rapper
Jesus Christ // Brand New
You're So Last Summer // Taking Back Sunday
In an Aeroplane Over the Sea // Neutral Milk Hotel
Lua // Bright Eyes
Fourth of July // Sufjan Stevens

Dio mi potevi scagliar // Verdi
Belle nuit, nuit d'amour // Offenbach
Der Doppelgaenger // Franz Schubert
L'heure exquise // Reynaldo Hahn
Rebel Girl // Bikini Kill
Dream Lover // Paris Sisters
Stand By Me // Ben E. King
First Time We Fall In Love // The Kinks
Sgt. Pepperspray // Clitoris Rex
This Time // The Itch

Proof // I Am Kloot
Let Me Down Gently // La Roux
Genghis Khan // Miike Snow
Feel It In My Bones // Tiesto ft. Tegan & Sara
Dancing On My Own // Robyn
When I Fall // Barenaked Ladies
Perfect Day // Lou Reed
Push the Sky Away // Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds
Under Pressure // Queen ft. David Bowie
Country Feedback // R.E.M.

Stephanie (MixtressRae)
Sullen Girl // Fiona Apple
Joga // Bjork
White Pepper Ice Cream // Cibo Matto
I Never Came // Queens of the Stone Age
Dreaming // Goldfrapp
Waking the Witch // Kate Bush
Fear // Sarah McLachlan
Pornography // The Cure
Sour Times // Portishead
Waltz (Better Than Fine) // Fiona Apple

Rebel Girl // Bikini Kill
If I Had a Million Dollars // Barenaked Ladies
Somewhere Over the Rainbow // Judy Garland
Rainbow Connections // Kermit the Frog
Little Plastic Castle // Ani DiFranco
Splinter // Ani DiFranco
Leather // Tori Amos
La valse de'amelie (piano version) // Yann Tiersen
Imagine // John Lennon
New Soul // Yael Naim

Not a Pretty Girl // Ani DiFranco
Thinking and Worrying // Lightnin' Hopkins
Danza Kaduro // Don Omar
For Real // Okkervil River
My Favorite Coat // Deb Talan
Tyrone (live) // Erykah Badu
Danny's Song // Loggins & Messina
In My Mind // Amanda Palmer
House of the Risin' Sun // Bob Dylan
Save a Prayer // Duran Duran

I Did It // Dave Matthews Band
Happy Phantom // Tori Amos
Kiss Off // Violent Femmes
Wake Up Alone // Amy Winehouse
46 & 2 // Tool
Handlebars // Flobots
Sarajevo // Watsky
Foothills // Violent Femmes
Travelling Solves Everything // Violent Femmes
Mad Hatter // Melanie Martinez

Beast of Burden // The Rolling Stones
Closer // Nine Inch Nails
Yellow Ledbetter // Pearl Jam
Raining on Sunday // Keith Urban
Stay // Sugarland
Ice Cream // Sarah McLachlan
You Can Do It // Ice Cube
Thinking Out Loud // Ed Sheeran
Angel Eyes // Jeff Healy

Spirit in the Sky // Norman Greenbaum
The Mississippi Squirrel // Ray Stevens
Moon, Moon, Moon // Laurie Berkner
If I Had a Million Dollars // Barenaked Ladies
Henry the VIII // Herman's Hermits
I'll Fly Away // Alison Krauss
War of 1812 // Johnny Horton
Happy Ending // Peter Cupples Band
Another Postcard // Barenaked Ladies
Wings of a Dove // Dolly Parton

Laura H.
Black Velvet // Alannah Myles
Born This Way // Lady GaGa
Daily, Nightly // The Monkees
Dancing Queen // ABBA
Heartbreaker // Pat Benatar
Holding Out For a Hero // Bonnie Tyler
I Was There (And I'm Told I Had a Good Time) // The Monkees
Nine Times Blue // The Monkees
Not What You See // Barry Manilow
Woman // John Lennon

My Blue Heaven // Gene Austin
Sing, Sing, Sing (With a Swing) // Benny Goodman
Sous le dome epais // Marilyn Horne
Allegro gous 14 // Samuel Barber
Here Comes the Sun // The Beatles
Take Five // Campanile Jazz Ensemble
Shumba // Thomas Mapfumo & The Blacks Unlimited
Fanfare for the Common Man // New York Philharmonic
I'll See You In My Dreams // Joe Brown
Bob Wills is Still The King // Waylon Jennings

Beyond the Sea // Bobby Darin
Here Comes Your Man // Pixies
Monkey Gone to Heaven // Pixies
Love Will Tear Us Apart // Joy Division
In Your Eyes // Peter Gabriel
Melt With You // Modern English
Bizarre Love Triangle // New Order

Tell Your Heart to Beat Again // Danny Gokey
What a Wonderful World // Louis Armstrong
You Look Wonderful Tonight // Eric Clapton
Seduces Me // Celine Dion
Boondocks // Little Big Town
Way You Look Tonight // Frank Sinatra
I Lived // One Republic
Free // Zac Brown Band
Wish You Well // Thousand Foot Krutch
Never Say Goodbye // Bon Jovi

Alley Cat // Bent Fabric
Sad Flower Film (aka Guitar Concerto in G Major, 2nd movement) // Sesame Street
You Dropped a Bomb on Me // The Gap Band
Touched // VAST
Taxman // The Beatles
The Unforgettable Fire // U2
Can't You Hear Me Knocking // The Rolling Stones
Hold On (live from "No Alternative" AIDS Benefit Album) // Sarah McLachlan
Fragile // Sting
Stand and Deliver // Adam & The Ants

Solsbury Hill // Peter Gabriel
The Night Chicago Died // Paper Lace
Draggin the Line // Tommy James & The Shondells
Raise a Little Hell // Trooper
Road to Nowhere // Talking Heads
Build a Fire // Drivin' n Cryin'
No Rain // Blind Melon
Learn to Fly // Foo Fighters
Wonderboy // Tenacious D
Open Up Your Eyes // Tonic

Cops of the World // Phil Ochs
I Do the Rock // Tim Curry
Dragonfly // Ziggy Marley
It's Money That Matters // Randy Newman with Mark Knopfler
Birth, School, Work, Death // The Godfathers
Me & Paul // Willie Nelson
Rosie // Jackson Browne
Happy Boy // The Beat Farmers
Play on Love // Jefferson Starship
More Than I Can Stand // Robert Cray

Faithfully // Journey
Rocky Mountain High // John Denver
How Sweet It Is // James Taylor
Something In The Water // Carrie Underwood
That's Important to Me // Joey & Rory
Someone Like You // Adele
Lost // Michael Buble
You Are God Alone // Phillips, Craig & Dean
10,000 Reasons // Matt Redman
Your Love, Oh Lord // Third Day

If I Were Your Woman // Gladys Knight & the Pips
Overjoyed, for once in my life // Stevie Wonder
If I can't Have You // Yvonne Elliman
I Only Have Eyes For You // Art Garfunkel
Run To Me // Bee Gees
It Don't Matter To Me // Bread
I Will Survive // Gloria Gaynor
Unchained Melody // Righteous Brothers
Is That All There Is // Peggy Lee
God Only Knows // Beach Boys

Crystal Blue Persuasion // Tommy James
I Am the Mercury // Jimmie Spheeris
Toulouse Street // Doobie Brothers
Under Pressure // Queen ft David Bowie
In a Lifetime // Clannad & Bono
Harvest Moon // Neil Young
Stella // Andreas Vollenweider
Give Me Novocaine // Green Day
Death of a Bachelor // Panic! at the Disco
Crazy=Genius // Panic! at the Disco

Laura W.
Dancing Queen // ABBA
Hopelessly Devoted To You // Olivia Newton-John
Always On My Mind // Willie Nelson
Crazy // Patsy Cline
From This Moment On // Shania Twain
Who Am I // Casting Crowns
I Can Only Imagine // Mercyme
Jesus Take The Wheel // Carrie Underwood
How Great Thou Art // Carrie Underwood

A Broken Wing // Martina McBride
Brown Eyed Girl // Van Morrison
Fixing a Hole // The Beatles
I Feel Like Hank Williams Tonight // Jeff Walker
Me & Paul // Willie Nelson
Last Thing I Needed... // Willie Nelson
Don't Let This Be The Reason // Suzy Bogguss
One More Day // Diamond Rio

Affirmation // Savage Garden
Over The Rainbow // Israel Kamakawiwo'ole
I Take My Chances // Mary Chapin Carpenter
Turn My Ship Around // Jeremy Buck
Try // P!NK
Sounds of Silence // Disturbed
Try Everything // Home Free
Heavy Cross // Gossip
Revelation // Third Day
It Feels Like Home // Nancy LaMott

Try // P!NK
Hallelujah // Jeff Buckley
Somebody That I Used To Know // Gotye and Kimbra
Someone Like You // Adele
Stuck On You // Lionel Richie with Darius Rucker
Total Eclipse of the Heart // Bonnie Tyler
You Didn't Have to Be So Nice // Lovin' Spoonful
When You Say Nothing At All // Alison Krauss
Hero // Enrique Iglesias
Pachelbel // Jean-Francois Paillard

Friday, July 29, 2016

Top Ten Songs of ALL TIME (as of today, anyway)

This is more than just my top ten songs of all time. This is a mix about struggle. About being female in a society that doesn't see you as a full human. About trying to reconcile sexuality as a less-than human. It is a story about control.

Friday, July 15, 2016


"Carrion Flowers" is the name of a new mix I just made. It's about the beautiful and the grotesque. The dead and the pretty. It's about being cute and happy while also maybe deciding to kill something.

Enjoy the Spotify version here (though it is missing a couple of CRUCIAL songs).

Otherwise, listen/watch the mix below.

Wednesday, May 18, 2016

Chickweed's Future.

^Above is the mix enclosed with ISH8 of Chickweed called "liveTHROUGHthis"

Recently a woman paid me $20 to reprint each of the thus-far ten issues of Chickweed, my zine. Today I spent all day re-burning mixes, re-dubbing cassettes, and reprinting the zines. It took HOURS. I did it wrong. It cost me an ink cartridge, 6 blank CDs, a blank cassette, and $4 in last-minute printing costs at the library when my printer ink ran out. When I take the package to the post office it will likely cost at least 6-10$ to mail them. I discovered ISH5 is missing. It was the one printed right before the tornado...maybe it was in my car or sitting out in my office or next to my destroyed typewriter? I've never done a second printing before. I figured it would be easy to just print one copy of each zine. Nope. Not easy at all.

I decided I won't be doing this again. I'll likely eventually scan in the originals and post them here so they can be viewed digitally whenever anyone wants to see them.

I've saved a lot of money since July 2014 when last I printed a zine. Each issue's costs look something like this:

*photocopy: 80cents
*blank CD: 50cents
*CD holder: 10cents
*mailer: 10cents
*cardstock for cover: 5cents
*mailing costs: 1.50

So each copy costs me about $3 if I have to mail it, $2 if I don't. I usually print 50 copies of an yeah, each issue costs me around $125 all told. AND I get half off copies at the library. It's just not worth the money anymore to make the zine.

Also, I haven't made one since July 2014, which is when I started Mixtress Radio. It seems my radio station has taken the place of creative outlet that the zines once occupied in my brain. I'm really glad I made Chickweed and I'm really happy I saved an issue from each original printing for myself, but this blog costs me NOTHING and reaches more people. The radio show costs me roughly $1.50 per week and I can say more and play a LOT more music, every WEEK.

I'm not saying I'll never make another issue of Chickweed, but I don't see it in my near future. Sad to see her fizzle after only ten issues, but she served her purpose and she's there if I ever need her again.

Thought I'd let y'all know, in case you miss Chickweed. I mean, if someone raised $125 for me to make an issue, I'd start it Friday afternoon but it just costs too much to do when you're a broke ho, ya know?

Friday, April 8, 2016

MixtressRae's Top 5 Madonna Music Videos

I'm doing a "Blonde Ambition Triangle Party" on the radio show tonight (see top right of blog for details as to when/where) which means I am playing three songs each from three blonde broads: Gwen, Madonna, and Debbie.

This led me down a couple of rabbit holes. One of these rabbit holes involved revisiting a topic I have worried way too much about over the years: whether or not Gwen Stefani was ok, because of all of Gavin Rossdale's "darkness". I knew nothing about their relationship save Stefani's lyrics and these lyrics ("Dark Blue", "Danger Zone", "Serious", etc) made me think that Gavin is too detritus and hair dryers while Gwen is all hearts and flowers. How can they ever make it? I've long enjoyed Gwen's ballsiness when it comes to her lyrics. We all know WHO she's writing about, every time, and the lyrics aren't shrouded in metaphor ever. They are always right there, no interpretation needed. So you can understand why I worried. It turns out that Gwen and Gavin finally called it quits last year. I'm really happy for her. In an interview she (again with the ballsiness) stated that when she looks back on her music from the past almost 20 years that they've been together she finds a lot of "red flags". I've seriously literally been thinking that since at least 2000's "Return of Saturn". Her art isn't always good, but I think she deserves to be happy.

Rabbit hole #2 has to do with Madonna. A recent episode of "Rupaul's Drag Race" in which the runway theme (the looks debuted at the end of the episode via pageant-style runway) was Madonna confused me. Freaking DRAG QUEENS were charged with dressing up like MADONNA and four of them chose "The Power of Goodbye"-kimono-Madonna. WHY is that the first version of Madonna they thought of? It was very perplexing. By far, the coolest runway look was inspired by the "Bedtime Story" music video.
Acid Betty's recreation of one of the best moments in Madonna music-video herstory.
The disappointing runway made me start thinking about how young these queens are. Perhaps to them, the first version of Madonna they remember is kimono-Madonna. But they have GaGa to fill Madonna's void (I know she's not gone, but she hasn't reinvented herself in Madonna-style since mayyyybe kimono-Madonna. I so do NOT count that weird country thing she did in 2000.) now. Then I started thinking about Madonna's cultural significance. Then I had to pick my top 5 Madonna music that made me watch a BUNCH of them last night. At one point Michael said, "Is this cultural appropriation?" and I looked at him with an eyebrow raised, "Have you met Madonna?" Regardless of discussions of appropriation, Madonna brought aspects of worldwide culture to American pop music repeatedly. She introduced things to a lot of us dummies.

I don't think of myself as being a big Madonna fan but I grew up with her. The reinvention of her image every few years was a given as I was growing up and now that I'm grown I see how rare that is and I recognize how many aspects of world culture she introduced to me.

You can watch my top 5 Madonna music videos in chronological order above. Here they are in countdown list form:

5) Vogue: This is the video wherein Madonna appropriates New York drag culture.

4) Like a Prayer: Black Jesus? Burning crosses? Making out with Jesus? I'm sure this was controversial, but to my developing child-mind I was just like, "Oh, there's Jesus. Why is Jesus sad? There's Madonna making out with Jesus. Why doesn't she pull up those dress straps? That would drive me crazy. Her boobs look good, though."

3) Human Nature: I think this is the ONLY Madonna music video in which Madonna is hammy and goofy. I wish we had gotten more of this Madonna. My drag runway Madonna look would have been this outfit.

2) Frozen: Madonna's cultural appropriation of India's religions. The first time I ever saw an Om symbol was in this music video on Madonna's palm. I remember pausing my VHS tape and drawing it on my own palm. My second favorite Madonna music video moment is in this video (below).

1) Bedtime Story: Favorite Madonna album, music video, and song. FAVORITE Madonna music video moment below (also involving birds).

What are your favorites?

Sunday, March 27, 2016

Computer as Extension of Self

It's confusing being in and of our tech-crazed society while also having watched it become so, as many of us have. While the obvious point to make is that we are all sucked into our "dream machines" all day long and that's weird and it's isolating us while simultaneously getting us too caught up in each other's minutiae, etc. But it's more than that. Back in the '70s computers were tools to help us with tasks we wanted to get done. They were impersonal like calculators.

Now computers are extensions of self. We may as well have our smartphones attached to our hands.

A smartphone is nothing without its partner in crime, the internet. Back in the mid-nineties when the internet was new, it was a safe haven for any nerd to find their tribe. It was a niche to squeeze yourself into while feeling the comfort of the tiny space you've hidden yourself in, like a cozy little warm cave blanket. Now everyone is there all of the time and it's saturated with all the yucky parts of humanity. Where are the cozy corners of the internet these days? Every time you find one (Instagram, Tumblr, etc) it gets expanded, invaded, and outfitted with fluorescent lighting.

In Felicia Day's memoir there's a chapter about #GamerGate which is a phenomenon I still don't totally understand, but it has something to do with boys being whiny about girls liking games, and by "whiny" I mean violent and abusive. Apparently when girls like something, it ruins it for boys. The kind of boys that think being a "man" means delineating yourself from women at all costs. Day brought up a really great point that anyone of my generation I think can understand: "What frightened me the most about my #GamerGate experience was the possibility that this could be the future of the internet. That the utopia I thought the online world created, where people don't have to be ashamed of what they love and could connect with each other regardless of what they looked like, was really a place where people could steep themselves in their own worldview until they become willfully blind to everyone else's."

Unfortunately, I think the internet as a whole HAS become a steeping, stewing, molding pot of brewing hatred-bile. It didn't used to be this way. There were always dangers specific to the internet, but the dangers of the budding baby internet were mostly relegated to meeting people in person you'd met first on the internet. Now the dangers lie in getting your address leaked to total strangers that have threatened to rape and kill you online because you expressed an opinion on Lana Del Rey that they don't share. The internet has evolved into a phenomenon that closely mirrors everyday life, except the internet is an everyday life that's a mean, and usually misogynist/racist/homophobic, drunk that has no filter.

There's something going on with our society. The ways in which it's been so fucked up for so long are surfacing. The dark and awful thoughts we used to mostly keep to ourselves are out on the internet which is now in our hands every waking moment. We don't give ourselves time to process our feelings and life events without posting them. We don't ask others how they are because we've seen their Facebook. We get angry if we have to tell others how we are that didn't see our Facebook. There's a weird and twisted new society being built online and we do NOT know the etiquette yet. We're all little baby barbarians that don't know how to behave.

Last night I watched a documentary on Steve Jobs that got real philosophical with the way this man changed our relationship to computers. I believe if he hadn't done it, someone else would have. Regardless, this relationship has evolved very quickly in our lifetimes and it's something we need to keep an eye on. We each have personal computers on us almost all the time. These items are tools that help us through the day. They compute. They are our cameras, notebooks, road maps, radios, sketchbooks, calculators, voice recorders, musical instruments, and links to the outside world.

Portable computing devices are marvels of modern technology that should be allowing us to create on a massive scale. We have the means to become the best versions of our creative selves with one device most of us own. But instead we're smearing each other online, scrolling through endless feeds of babies and pets, hunching over our "dream machines". The mirrors we are looking into all day every day are little slabs of glass and metal that have become hardware add-ons to our brains.

That could be fine if we used our mini computing devices to enhance our lives. Take pictures. Write novels. Draw things. Make music. Look up information. Read books. The marriage of internet and handheld computers is the best and worst thing to happen to technology in our lifetimes. It's changing humanity right now. We are in the process of becoming something else (the Borg? Oh God, are we the Borg?) because of how we live our lives attached to our "dream machines". We can become zombies with towels over our heads or we can choose to find a way through this love of devices back to seeing them as tools to make our lives easier and more creative.

Jobs was a man that wanted computers to be an extension of self, and we've benefitted from his vision, but it's important also to remember that that guy was an asshole. He couldn't connect to other humans. He named a computer after his daughter I think because he was trying to force himself to love his baby daughter as much as he already loved his computer.

Dude, I completely have this computer love. I've owned 6 smartphones in the last 6 years...the 6th one is on its way to me now and I have a tab on my computer open to track its journey to my hand. I've been seduced by the culture of computer-self to a heavy degree, but it's causing me a lot of cognitive dissonance these days. I'm old enough to remember the internet being new. I'm old enough to remember a childhood without cellphones. I'm old enough to remember a world before iPods. My life has occupied a space outside of the internet, but not computers. I don't remember a world before Jobs put the personal in front of the word computer. I don't remember not having a computer in my own home, though I never had one of my own until I got a laptop for school in 2006. I've only had my very own personal portal to the internet for the last 10 years. That's not so long in the scheme of a life. It's not too late for me to relearn how to use computing devices as tools to help me create. Tools to help me get tasks done. I've given these devices names and I would even say that I love them, but in the end they are metal and glass. Nothing can fill the space of true connection with nature, animals, and other humans. The internet can connect you to other humans, but remember to speak to them like humans...we are not just interacting with the machines we touch. They may feel like extensions of us but they reach all the way around the world. Remember that.

Hugs not thugs, children.

Friday, March 25, 2016


Sometimes I think that I don't like people enough to work for the public.*

Here's the thing: the kind of people I have a problem with are those that think you WANT to pay attention to them. People who walk in a room like they own it and like you give a shit what THEIR top three artists in the room are. "Write it down!" No thanks, random dude.

People that think your time is theirs are my biggest pet peeve. Guess who cares about your movie reviews? Your family and friends. Guess who doesn't care about your movie reviews? People in customer service. Sometimes cool conversations about art and life and all that other stuff evolve organically, and those can be the greatest conversations when they involve two consenting adults. But walking up to a person that is paid to be nice to you and taking advantage of that niceness with monologues is just. so. sleazy. Don't do it.

This random and probably in poor taste rant has been brought to you by...


Gee, I love my endocrine system.

*Other times I'm sooo happy I can help someone get through their day, so it's not all bad.

Friday, March 11, 2016

The Pete-riarchy: Gaslighting Dogs

VENTING session in 3...2...1

So there's this neighbor we have with a redheaded fluff-monster that Luna (our husky/pitbull/heeler mix) and other dogs in the neighborhood have attacked several times. Here's WHY: the dog's owner SAUNTERS through alleyways and talks to dogs that are barking bloody murder at him and his beast. He stops and stares at dogs that obviously want to take his bitch out. He doesn't avoid dogs that have previously attacked his dog. Luna has attacked her three times now. Today the guy decided to call Animal Control on us. We now have a court date and other hoops to jump through.

Luna IS aggressive. She is also an escape artist. We will plead guilty. I have been confused by her aggressive behavior her entire life. You never see it coming. She has attacked every dog she's ever shared a house with and also this neighborhood dog. She does NOT like other dogs. I don't know exactly how to handle her.

...buuuuuut, why would you not avoid an alleyway next to a yard with a dog that has attacked your dog before? Nay, a yard that has housed a different dog that has also attacked your dog. If not avoid the alley, then walk past it briskly at the VERY least. Why stop and taunt? The guy was still sauntering about in our piece of alleyway as Animal Control was handing us the citation. That's how long he was out there. This guy. Seriously.

I was real mad at Luna at first. When Animal Control let us know who had lodged the complaint I ceased being mad. As a dog owner, I would never continue to place my dog in prolonged contact with dogs that wish her harm.