Monday, September 6, 2021

Definition through objects.

The thing about defining yourself by the things that you have is that you CAN'T.

The thing about having collections of things is that it (mostly) doesn't matter what you have. It does matter if a thing is useful or isn't, a thing is pretty or isn't, but the more minute distinctions aren't as important as capitalism wants us to believe. We have bought IN.

In the end, if you're a card reader, it doesn't matter what deck you have in your hands, you'll be able to read them. You are the vessel. You could have 47 tarot decks, 470, or just 1 and the message would be the same as long as you feel some level of connection to the imagery.

I don't need a "connection" to the imagery in more than probably 10? 15? 20? tarot decks. I'm down to <20 in the Great Culling of 2021. I spent most of 2019 and 2020 acquiring soooo many decks of cards. Seeing how different artists portray the ideas within the tarot system is useful to learning tarot, but I don't need to OWN the decks to do this.

I am learning to be happy with what I have and to resist the temptation to keep buying more and more things I don't need, but this is a difficult and multilayered process. 

The things you have don't really matter all that much. I've spent so much of my adult life thinking really fucking hard about the acquisition of the "perfect" object. In some cases, it works to my advantage, but in many others it serves only to disappoint me when nothing is perfect, because nothing can be perfect. 

Accept flaws in items you've already acquired. Acquire items because they're pretty, useful, and available to you (affordable, physically THERE, etc). You'll never find the "perfect" tarot deck. You might find several you love and use regularly, but they won't be perfect. NONE of them.

Acceptance of the tools you have available to you is the key. At least, that's what I'm thinking today.

Friday, March 26, 2021

OMG, I haven't posted in a year and a half!


Hi. So, I am an autistic human that EXISTS for whatever my current obsession is. Right now, that obsession is perfume. Above you will see a 1998 Hypnotic Poison ad. I've been wearing Hypnotic Poison since that year. I don't know why I'm putting it here...

I don't remember how to blog. Do you? Does anyone read blogs anymore?

Anyway, according to my blog statistics, people still visit this blog. If you are reading this right now, please know that I do still exist. At the top of this page you will see the information for my Buffy podcast, my Etsy page wherein I sell tarot readings, my Mixtress Radio weekly show, my YouTube channel, and my Patreon. I still do all those things. I'm a little nervous as to what this blog contains, considering it has been right here since like what, 2007? I'm too lazy to even check and I'm probably the ONLY person who might be interested in that information.

Anyway, I hope you are well. I hope you are enjoying your life. I hope the pandemic isn't getting you too down. I hope you are able to reclaim some calm in 2021 so far. I would like to say I'll start updating this silly page again, because I do pay for the domain name every goddamn year...but hey, maybe it will be another year and a half. 

Check out the other places I exist on the internet. I am actually a pretty decent tarot reader. I update my Youtube usually weekly. My Buffy podcast is recapping season 5 and we are nearing the END. Lots of emotional stuff going on over there. My weekly radio show is mostly just me talking about my psychological BULLLLLLLLLshit, but I also play music, so it ain't all bad. 

 If you've read this, I like you a lot. Thanks for that.

I hope you have a wonderful time in whatever interval of the day you currently find yourself within. Byeeeeeeee!👽🖤👽